“I long to be worse [than I am]... condition of nuclear fusion. A star is, from birth, consuming [itself] until it collapses in on itself… that transgression itself is not enough. Engagement with perverse and alluring self-destruction… turns [to me] like the sun in heaven, blinding affirmation, and sings. I am in love with burning… People’s voices trickle through the smoke and it is not enough. It is not ever enough…”